Anonymous said: How do you manage to be so confident? I mean, I try so hard to love and accept myself but I can't help but feel disgusted at myself every time I look in the mirror... and hating myself so much got me into anorexia nervosa actually. And I still can't accept myself the way I am. I feel fat and I feel ugly. I wish I was as gorgeous and as confident as you are. You're seriously so beautiful.
Sometimes I feel like we’re conditioned to doubt ourselves - I used to struggle with how I looked and it was pretty crippling. Also, coming from a mixed background (Russian-Chinese Australian) I had a lot of conflicting beauty ideals I felt I had to live up to. I used to have eating disorders during my teens (sadly, I feel like this is almost a coming of age for girls). I have always been considered too chubby or whatever by most people I’ve known growing up - even family and friends would constantly try to ‘help’ me with dieting/weightloss tips, etc, but the truth is that I’m just predispositioned to be juicy. The turning point was simple - I got tired of hating myself and wasting so much energy on feeling bad. It’s boring. I decided to trust myself. What I’ve found the most interesting about this is that when I decided to love myself and feel confident that’s really when other people began responding differently (positively) to me as well.
Do you find feeling insecure about the way you look to be counter-productive? When I began to put my energy into other things like my art etc that’s when my career really took off and so many amazing opportunities and people entered my life! It’s so much more rewarding than hating yourself and I feel so much happier just with all the things I have going on in my life, I don’t really have any energy left for negativity.
I feel very grateful for my body - I see it as something separate to my soul and myself - and it’s the only body I’ll ever have so I should be kind to it and love it. It’s seen me through my teens and all the bullshit I went through, all my highs and lows, every experience, and will be there for me until I die.
I always like to mention that we all have bad days, but just recognise them for what they are and be kind to yourself. It’s 3am so I hope this hasn’t been too messy to read. Good luck, beautiful, I know you’ll get there :) xo
alphadoubleplus said: How do you run your business? Do you do all the designs or collaborate?
Hi! I do all the designing, pattern making, grading, social media, website, and creative stuff. I sew a lot of the orders myself too but now have a few awesome ladies who help me with the sewing here in Melbourne. My sister Domi has become a lot more involved with emails, customer service, wholesale, stylist loans and lots more behind the scenes organising and administration things. I have another couple of amazing ladies who help with the cutting and posting and packing. In the beginning I did this all myself - but since things have been growing so quickly I’ve needed help! My team is small but I love it this way and hope to keep things the way they are - but maybe just grow my sewing team a little as orders increase :)